I dare you to read this Joe

Dear Joe,

you really don't have to fake being my friend. I understand if you don't want to talk to me given that I'm your friends ex and that this certain girl is so self centered that she has to isolate you all to herself even though she already has a boyfriend, WHO treats her like shit. I hate to be the person to tell you this but its not going to happen between you too. If it hasn't already.

I told you to think about it before you answered if you liked me or not. To really think about it, and not just go off your stoner little mind. You have no idea how much you hurt me. I know you didn't mean to and its not fair for me to attack you like this but wtf. You kissed me. You held me. You made me feel more complete then i ever felt, and then the next day you said that she was there. that she saw us. If you really cared about me then you wouldn't have cared. Well at least not let it destroy not only what we had for that very short amount of time but our friendship as well.

Joe, i miss you. I miss our conversations. I don't care if all we are is friends. That's better then nothing. Even though it would hurt me every syllable spoken knowing that nothing more could come out of it, it would be so worth it.

You talked to me. Real conversations about anything and everything. Your so smart. In yet you don't see this. Why don't you see this? I can see in your eyes that you put yourself down so much. But why? I will never get this.


Why am i doing this to myself? My did i let myself get attracted to you so damn fast? If you are reading this you proubley think I'm a crazy stalker. I'm sorry.
i should have just never talked to you in the first place. I should have just left you as Andrews friends and let it be. It won't happen again.

I won't fall for another guy again. It hurts me way to much.

Who could like me anyways? I'm a nobody really. Just a another face in the crowd.